Do you remember when you first entered this community?
I do 🙋🏻
I remember seeing my first before/after pic, and thinking “holy shit.”
I remember seeing women in whom I saw myself, and thinking, “If they can do this, so can I.”
Little things, that at the time felt so big, like ✨how (even slender people’s) stomachs aren’t always flat
✨how much posing can change the way bodies look on film
✨what anxiety looks and feels like
✨why inclusion and acceptance matter
Talking about the things that affect us all, dispelling myths and cracking open our own fears and looking deep inside.
I remember when the recovery community on IG was still developing, and the body positive community was growing stronger, and I remember when those two worlds collided for me.
It was M A G I C
and I felt accepted. I felt loved. I made friends (good, kind, honest and caring people who didn’t brush me off or roll their eyes at me because I was a thin white woman) and I found myself taking risks, and challenging myself.
I remember how scared I was to do that, to truly be myself: the first time I posted a full-body photo, or an #embracethesquish post; the first time I truly recognized my own privilege; the first time I was interviewed about my anorexia and talked about it, sweating and nervous, but I did it.
Putting ourselves out there is hard. And as our lives progress, and as communities change and progress, so do we.
Our anxieties change. Our fears evolve.
But our drive? Our passion? The things that keep us waking up every morning, the feelings we chase, the spirit that moves us?
That stays with us.
When I entered this community I wanted to do one thing: I wanted to help people.
And these last few months I felt like I might have lost that piece of myself that stood up and said, “NO, this is what I believe in. THIS is why I do this.”
But after this weekend of reenergizing, rebalancing with people I love, I remembered:
I’m still me. That hasn’t changed. That will never change.
The magic of my purpose surrounds me like an ether, and this weekend I took a deep breath and relaxed back into it.
I’m still me, and I’m not going anywhere. ❤️
#recovery #community #youwillfindyourselfagain
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