Finally leaving the hill feeling so many things. Feeling the deepening of my relationships with myself, my ancestors, Nature, my loves and my #movementcrushes. Feeling such clarity about my work and role in The Work and feeling both validated and unseen in it. Feeling present with my family of origin, heavy and rooted as we all hold my mother up who had emergency surgery yesterday and is in ICU now. Feeling the urgency of this #griefwork. Feeling the reality of how we can and do lose our lives from neglecting to FEEL, EXPRESS, and MOVE the grief, how it lodges itself in our bodies, our tissues, our wombs, our DNA. Feeling so present with Nature's communications: the owls, coyotes, wasps, bees, deer, grasshopper, the LUNA MOTH that sat at the grief altar with me as I held vigil during my mother's surgery last night. All of the plant homies. Remembering what #CarolJudy taught me about making love to the earth. Remembering what #SobonfuSome taught me about how grief can build up and become depression. Remembering what #AudreLorde taught me about the danger of silence. I am so grateful for everybody at Highlander for what y'all invited this weekend and especially @alltheabove15 for holding me and us all in the fullness of what we are and bring and need to get free. ✌🏾❤️🖤💚✨#thatwasintenseandtransformative #untilnexttime
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My heart and nervous system are still unwinding from a hard + beautiful weekend engaged in advanced training for grief--but even still, I feel inspired and refreshed too.
It makes me realize two things:
First, folks who do the work of walking through their stories, and truly owning all of it, are courageous.
Second, all of us have what it takes to be *healers.* Maybe not professionally (because how boring would that be, if we were all the same?), but when we choose to engage our shame, God can transform it + weave it into the bigger story of redemption.
I pray you have every resource you need to lean into your story today.
"Have you seen the girl with the mind on fire? She set out to tell the world how they suppress our desires. Said she wouldn't back down till the rules were amended and she didn't give a f*ck who she offended. Have you seen her now? Have you seen her now? I've been spending all day trying to track her down. Have you seen the girl with the heart as big as the sea? She looks just like you and just like me. She set out to find humanity and the keys to set her lovers free. Tell me, have you seen her now? Have you seen her now? The rumor is the nine to five is weighing her down." ⛰ @aisha.badru #mindonfire #picturesque #views #transparency #healing #griefwork #identitywork #moments #seeker #innerwork #woundedness #ambition #change #humanity #love #loss #balance #longing
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My view when my vision was not beautifully obscured by the light dancing through my tears.
Maybe I'll paint what that looked like someday.
And of course I woyld love it if you rediscover it for yourself. ******* I felt an anxious stress winding into me, and as I noticed the pall of frustration, anxiety, loss, fear, I became aware of my need to grieve.
So I went outside and sat, feet in the grass and wept. And then I sensed that I wanted more help grieving and I knew what I wanted.
So I lit a candle, got naked (mostly because it is hot up on the third floor, also because grieving can be messy and I figured I'd want a shower after, and because naked is good for grieving and good for life in general), and got this little computer and my headphones and queued up the three parts of Martin Prechtel's "Grief and Praise." *** I first encountered Martin in a collection of interviews by Derrick Jensen titles, I believe, "How are we to live?" I remember enjoying the piece but not pursuing learning more about or from him then.
A little over a year later, I was at Dancing Rabbit Ecovillage helping with childcare for their winter retreat period, and friends of the community Elena Zubulake and Victor Warring show up. They are embodied intimacy coaches, sex coaches, dancers, community process facilitators, writers, and beautiful human beings, in my not at all humble opinion.
One evening they screened a group listen to that talk (it is on YouTube) and it floored me. Literally had me fall out of my seat onto the floor in delighted laughter and tears of joy. I felt so met and so affirmed and so at home in the embrace that is his heart, his words, his experience. *** When I went to Prague to be with Mars, I had these three parts on the iPad mini my brother gave me. I frequently listened to it at the end of the day. Lots of grief and lots of praise built up and Mars was too sick to receive much of it at all. And so I let Martin help me get it out and receive it and give it to the trees and the people in Prague who probably thought I was strange -- dancing and laughing and crying and punching and kicking the air.
I love Martin and I love this recording. <3
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The more I do this work, the more I believe in the power of the circle.
Intentional group work is like hooking into a giant energy grid.
It has more charge.
More transforming power.
We open up to stronger currents, capable of drudging up what's long been buried at the bottom of the river.
We become a larger organism - releasing and receiving on a deeper level.
The more I do this work, the more prepared I am for the transitions.
The build up.
As an introvert/empath (INFP)- the swing feels wide.
Like a mountain each time.
The exhilaration of being in a higher vibrational energy field full of love vibes - surrounded by our spirit posses - gets me so high.
And the come down gets me so low.
The familiar bottom of the wave is felt as the vacuum that was left in the wake of releasing causes my energy body to collapse.
As I empty out, I feel all the messy and confusing feels.
In this stage, emotions may not make sense.
It's old energy.
Usually full with grief on some level. .
Grief is the emotion of this season.
And we have lost our ability to grieve as a modern society.
We have especially forgotten how to grieve our ancestors.
Our energetic baggage is like a river full of boulders.
We can't move them alone.
They are heavy and crushing.
Only with a strong current will they begin to budge.
So we come together... in circle... and I learn that the more I do this work, the clearer the water becomes.
The more I trust the wave, the further I travel.
The more I am connected into the great web, the more I float.
And so it is.
(Photo - from last week durning a 4 day intensive course/ceremony I co-taught for the UMN's Center for Spirituality and Healing called Foundations of Shamanism.)
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